Sunday, November 4, 2007

Sunday Night



We just got home from my mom's house and I though I would share a photo of my new haircut. As I am destined to loose all of my hair, I felt it necessary to cut it short before it started to fall out (a result of Etoposide) as they guaranteed me that I would lose it. Addison is pretty intrigued with it and wants to rub my head. It's definitely the shortest I have ever had my hair, although that will be short lived.......


Tomorrow's appointment is on everyone's mind and I am just hoping to get in there and really understand what it takes to get through these sessions. My dad is here on a previously scheduled visit and was able to extend it so he can see where I will take the treatment. I will take photo's of the area and the nurses as it makes it easier to tell you about it if you have the visual. Although this begins tomorrow, it still does not feel very real. Of course, I now have scares and an implant to prove it's real but I am thinking about how it all happened (getting cancer) and wonder if I was conscious of a moment when it started. Is it possible that something happened one day and I felt it or had one of those instances where you feel like you missed something? I know this is an impossible question to answer and, unfortunately, these are the types of things I am contemplating right now. So, I will try to sleep this evening, wondering if those bags of pop rocks and cans of Cactus Cooler put me on the road to cancer. Maybe it was the Gatorade gum....that was not out very long and it was a strange lime green color.


Thanks to everyone for the calls and food. We are very fortunate to to have you as friends and family.


Sam


1 comment:

Mary Moreland said...

I think you will look better when it the hair is all gone...
A couple of tatoos might help and an earring.

We are all with you Sam. in some strange way, we all will float around you and hope that our energy and our love can help.