Last night was really rough and I am glad I have the day to rest. Not long after 8pm I got really sick and it wiped me out. The bad thing was that it happened twice and I didn't think I had anything left for the 2nd round but I did. It was hard to get to sleep and I still feel really crappy.
A while ago I mentioned Greg and posted a link to his site. The week after I started treatment, he was diagonsed with some severe cancer that had spread through his body. Greg passed away on Sunday afternoon and, although I do not know the details, I tell myself that he was with his family and not in any pain. I have not been able to check his web page yet as it would be too hard to read about it. As I feel stronger, I will read it but I'm not ready for that emotion right now.
Jen and I went in for the Neulasta shot yesterday and ran into Gary and his wife Julie. I mentioned him early on when they were taking some jazz out of his head. It turns out that he was on a similar schedule as I was and we saw each other every 3 weeks. Well, yesterday was pretty much my last day and, for the first time, we asked him what he had going on. It's pretty severe with stem cells and a transplant and months of treatment. Again, it's hard to feel lucky right now feeling as I do but I realize it's true and I am pretty lucky. This could have been much worse and I'm really fortunate that it wasn't. I do hope Gary is able to get through this as he is a very nice guy and someone I will check in on.
I am going to try and sleep for a couple hours.
Sam
Tuesday, January 15, 2008
Day 72
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Sam,
I am sorry to hear that you had such a tough night. I am greatful though that you have the ability to jsut rest today and recoup your strength.
I did check Greg's site and it does say that he was surounded by friends and family and that he was not in pain if that helps at all. As I said to Jen yesterday I found Greg's passing very emotional. The reality is that this hit just too close to home and reminded me yet again how greatful I am that you found your cancer so early and that it was not disguised by other forms of illness.
Take care of yourself today and in the days to come as you regain your strength. I am with you always.
I love you.
Heather
Sam,
I am a friend of Greg's who was turned on to your fight via his website and network of friends. Greg was surrounded by family when he passed and had a constant stream of visitors throughout his final days. He made peace with himself, and his god.
I will continue to follow your fight (and win) through your website. Even though I don't know you, I pray for you and your family daily. Keep up the good fight sir! You are an inspiration to everyone that follows your battle.
JL
Dear sweet Sam, I love that the introducing of you and Greg has turned out to be such a deep and truly emotional relationship that has reached out to so many! As emotional of a time that this is, watching you do so well is inspiring to all!! Continue to be strong and positive!! All my prayers and thoughts of healing are being sent your way!!! Donna
Oh Sam! Your battle is being witnessed by and transforming to so many of us! My thoughts and and prayers are with you everyday. I pray for a good restful sleep for you tonight, a healing time, that leaves you feeling strong and loved!
Always.
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