Day 44

Today was a very busy one for the Rocky Mountain cancer center. The 6 seats were full and they had 2 people getting treatment on the side. I was there at 950am and left at 310pm. I usually do not sleep but was able to for a few hours and it really helped pass the time. Its a little strange when you open your eyes (i had a hat over my eyes) as there were 4 new people there. I am not sure about the extra fluid yet as it doesn't "really" suck until Thursday and Friday. The first couple days leave you tired and worn out and the end of the week is where it knocks me out. I have driven myself to treatment this week as Jennifer is very sick. In the 11 years I have known her i've never seen her have it this bad. She is getting better but it's slow. Don't be surprised if I call you for a ride this week as I'm not sure it's good for me to drive the rest of the week. Dont forget, i blew through the garage door on Wed of chemo week # 1.

I've been told not to eat  sweet, sugar filled things and at the Dr office, there must be 10 or 12 tins, boxs and bags of goodies. Not that I expect people to show up with the Cancer Diet of "B.R.A.T." Which stands for banana's, rice, apple sauce and toast but doesn't that sound harmful? I'm not sending a bottle of gin to the AA or cupcakes to weightwatchers.

Reznick stopped by to see me today and said the scans looked good and we will discuss on Friday when I have an office visit. I didn't let on that his nurse has already let me ready the report.

Since I was unhappy with blockbusters online dvd rentals and cancelled the service, I am watching James Bond during treatment. As you know, the Ultimate Bond collection represents 95 percent of my dvd's so there is a lot to choose from. Yesterday i watched Goldfinger, which is my favorite. There are a few scenes where VW bugs are driving in the background and I love to see those old bugs.  Today, I followed it up with Thunderball, which I like except for the name. Everything about the movie is good including the villans, locations, women and gadgets but the name never struck me. Probably to late to do anything about it.

It's kind of strange as the hair on my head is slowly growing. I have some very light stubble which surprises me.  Not sure if/when it will fall out or, i will shave by the time I go back to the office. Do you know they have a razor made just for your head? I saw it at Walmart but did not buy it.

Anyway, although there are 40 days left untul the end of the 4th cycle, i feel like it's really less than that. If I start to feel okay onday 14 or 15 of the cycle, that means there are really 33 or 34 days left. That is how I am looking at it although the cumlitative effects might be rougher after the 4th course.

I had a post the other day that referenced Greg. I was very emotional and only a few people saw it before I took it down. Greg is a friend of a friend and he found out he has cancer a week after my treatment started. Please check out his web page and send him some good vibes.

Thanks for listening to me. I cant stress enough haw nice it is to get all the calls, cards and emails. As I have mentioned before, it's really hard to talk with people as it's really easy for me to get emotional and have a hard time talking. I'm sure most of us will have time to catch up when you take me golfing or to an Avs playoff game or something else this spring or summer.

Sam





Sam Williams